Post No. 92

Awesome dinner. Full like mad. Puasa tomorrow :) Just for lunch. Till I lose my belly.

Off to bed, was up till 3am last night :) and I woke up at 6.30am. Shucks ;(


Have a nice life.

xx

Post No. 91

Today turned out to be a fairly good day. Spent my day watching movies and True Blood s3e09. Downloaded a few movies since the past few weeks actually but I haven't got the time to actually watch it. So yeah today was the day to indulge. Can't wait for Transformers 2 in BluRay to be done. I bet it'll be awesome ;)


Was worried sick abt something which.. well, doesn't involve me . But then again, I'm a weird soul with twisted and complicated thoughts. I think too much, I eat too much, I sleep too much, maybe I just do everything too much.


Mum was in an awesome mood today, maybe cause I didn't argue with her. LOL. She got me a new Nike backpack cause I needed a new bag as my old one stink of sweat and rain and also she got me a shirt which was a really random moment.I was just exploring my options abt the new bag thing manatau she agreed to buy. LOL. Lucky me. Then she saw this Nike shirt and she went like " you want or not?" I was like OOOOKAYYYYYYY :)


So, my dark and twisted mood vanished and here I am enjoying the rest of the night just cause he makes me happy ;)

xx

Post No. 90

A lot of shit has happened these past few days and no I wouldn't wanna talk about it. Like I said before, things get better than it'll take turn for the worst. But then again, I'm getting the hang of how life treats you. Life serves you shit and you're expected to treat it with respect.


On the brighter side of things, I slept at 5am. A person who cared enough to make me feel better after a rough day. I'm eternally grateful. Yes I did feel like shit, till I couldn't sleep and a surprised phone call jolted my senses and telling me I haven't been seeing the bigger picture. I realized that I've been feeling the wrong way and somehow that phone call pushed me right back to the direction I was supposed to be heading towards.


However I had my doubts this morning, then again, I felt better. Don't ask me why but I learnt not to give a fuck abt things anymore.

"There will be some things in life that is meant to be left unsaid, and unknown. Cause thats the best thing you could have done to save what you have left that hasn't been scarred."

-by me.

xx

Post No. 89

Today is the day, I get addicted to Daughtry again. Why? Just cause he is awesome as he always was :) His songs are so amazing. His voice is so husky and deep and he's just like a rockstar but with a sensitive side! I've got his whole album so I'm playing it back and forth again.


Here's pieces of the songs I love.

September

How the time passed away? All the trouble that we gave
And all those days we spent out by the lake
Has it all gone to waste? All the promises we made
One by one they vanish just the same

Of all the things I still remember
Summer's never looked the same
The years go by and time just seems to fly
But the memories remain

In the middle of September we'd still play out in the rain
Nothing to lose but everything to gain
Reflecting now on how things could've been
It was worth it in the end

Now it all seems so clear, there's nothing left to fear
So we made our way by finding what was real
Now the days are so long that summer's moving on
We reach for something that's already gone

Tennessee Line

I open my lungs
To breathe in forgiveness and love
Haunting me now, reminders of how I used to be
I know down the road
My troubles are sure to follow
Looking out the window
Hell if I know where I will go
So I will just keep on driving

On my way to L.A.
Looking into the rear view
As the roads fade away
Sworn off my past
The first and last bad call that I ever made
Tell me how to make right
Every wrong turn I've learn
That this can all end tonight
Tennessee line just changed my mind
It's my heart I'll follow this time

Who would've known
That pride is so hard to swallow
As I rest on the shoulder of a road
Growing colder, with the trouble on I own
Should I just keep on driving

I know I must be doing something right
Head the other way back to where I started out
Ask myself if I can turn it all around tonight
And stop living with doubt

Learn My Lesson

Tonight the sunset means so much
The one thing that you know you'll never touch
Like the feeling, the real thing
I reach out for that sweet dream

But somehow the darkness wakes me up
I've felt this emptiness before
But all the times that I've been broken
I still run right back for more

You'd think that I'd learn my lesson by now
You'd think that I'd somehow figure out
That if you strike the match
You're bound to feel the flame

You think that I'd learn the cost of love
Paid that price long enough
But still I drive myself right through the pain
Yeah, well it turns out, I haven't learned a thing

Sometimes I think I'm better off
To turn out the lights and close up shop
And give up the longing, believing in belonging
Just hold down my head and take the loss



Call Your Name

You never said, you never said, you never said
That it would be this hard
Love is meant to be forever, now or never seems to discard
There's gotta be a better way for me to say
What's on my heart without leaving scars?
Can you hear me when I call your name?

And when you fall apart
Am I the reason for your endless sorrow?
There's so much to be said and with a broken heart
You walls can only go down but so low
Can you hear me when I call your name?

Complicated situations are the makings of all that's wrong
And I've been standing in the river of deliverance way too long
There's gotta be a better way for me to say
What's on my heart without leaving scars?
Can you hear me when I call your name?
So, can you hear me when I call your name?

And of course, songs that they have already released. Listen to them on youtube or download it. I'm sure its worth it ;) They're mad awesome.

xx

Post No. 88

YEAY, stayed behind again today to watch football. :D everyday is the same old routine but then friends make it some much more awesome. So yeah time flew by pretty fast. Lynn ditched me to go home :(

College was as awesome. My plan to puasa failed again, cause I ended up eating bread for lunch which is carbs. BOOO :(

Thank god it didn't rain today cause I wore shoes. God loves playing cause when I actually wear shoes, it doesnt rain, when I wear my flats, it rains. SHUCKS.

Faber Drive feveeeeeer ;)

xx

Post No. 87

I just got home like an hour ago. Showered cause I couldnt stand the sweat + rain + mud on my skin but at least I still smell fine unlike someone I know (: My bag stinks of sweat and rain. Trust me, it is NOT a good combination.

Rained like some retard to day while the football match was going on. Stood under the shade with ah SHU cause she needed to wait for Fong. Talked some shit after so long not being able to. Threw in a few things that made her eyes go O.O

Had dinner with fatboyslim. Boy, was it fun cause he stinked like cow poop.
:P


I think I'm gonna make it a habit to blog as often as I can, But no promises.
I love people who makes me happy . <3 :D

xx

Post No. 86

Things are better today. Thanks to the whole bunch of people I get involved with everyday. (:
Right now, I get to stay back in college everyday to watch FOOTBALL :D As for the disadvantage, I MIGHT get stuck in the jam. Last few days had been an epic roller coaster ride with my emotions and my friends.

I went out with my ex tuition mates. Boy it was epic. I miss their company and I'm so so glad I get to revive those moments and know that it will last.

College mates, they're just a huge bundle of everlasting energy that keeps me hyped up all the time. I've found new friends to share everything with and it just keeps getting better and better.


As for tomorrow, I wouldn't be looking forward just cause I know it would'nt be fun in the morning but only in the evening (: <3


I love BIGBANG's Tell Me Goodbye.
Music put your thoughts into words you mind cant.
It relates so much.

xx